2 Years at ASAP: Changes, Growth, Perspective
The last 2 years of my life I’ve made some amazing memories. I’ve made some amazing friends who I really care about. I’ve made some amazing workouts that have given people results. I’ve made some amazing progress financially. I’ve made some amazing gains in my own personal life…
I’ve also messed up. I’ve missed out on many friends birthdays. I’ve missed out on family gatherings. I’ve missed out on myself. I’ve missed out on moments. The last 2 years of my life I’ve devoted and committed myself to other people. A business. A gym. An obsession for growth. An obsession for hustle. An obsession for fulfillment…
I’ve come very far. I didn’t know if I would make it. I didn’t know if I would ever be this stable. I didn’t know if I would ever know what it feels like to be “successful.” I didn’t know if I would ever feel what I feel now…I used to be lost. Depressed. Unhappy. Unfulfilled. I was never the best…I never knew what it felt like to be 1st…
I never knew what it felt like to have my own room. I never knew what it felt like to have my own creation. I never knew what it felt like to have my own place…
The last 2 years of my life have taught me so many lessons. They’ve taught me that if you stay focused, if you stay committed, if you stay persistent, you’ll get to your destination. They’ve taught me that as much as I love grinding, hustling, putting in the work…I also need time for me. I need time to rest. I need time to zen. They’ve taught me that you can give people endless amount of resources, recipes, workouts, texts, calls, conversations, but ultimately they are the ones that dictate their results. They’ve taught me that if I want to go fast, I go by myself…but if I want to go far, I need to go with other people.
I can’t tell you how many hours I’ve put in. I can’t tell you how many hours I’ve coached. I can’t tell you how many hours of my day have been at the gym. I’ve cried. I’ve cheered. I’ve smiled. I’ve been happy, grateful, blessed…I’ve been disappointed, confused, ignorant…
I’ve learned so many things in 2 years. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. I’m the most fulfilled I’ve ever been. I’m the healthiest I’ve ever been. I also have many things I need to work on. I need to work on being a better team player. I need to work on enjoying the small moments in my life that actually provide me more happiness than I would have ever imagined. Like taking my dog to the park and watching him play…like enjoying my meals more instead of thinking about my next grind…like being okay with watching a movie every once in a while instead of being so focused on my hustle…and lastly, I need to work on being a better version of myself. I have amazing qualities and strengths, but I also need to keep improving on my weaknesses and qualities that will make me an overall better me.
It’s really hard. It’s hard because sometimes we have certain expectations. Sometimes we have certain goals, ambitions, desires…I have to look at myself in the mirror every day. I want to feel successful. I want to feel accomplished. I want to feel solid. I do feel those things, but I also have to realize it’s not always about working, grinding, hustling…it’s also about zen, calm, breathing…
The last 2 years of my life have been the best. They’ve been fast. They’ve been successful. I’m thankful. I’m grateful. I wouldn’t have had it any other way…I’m grateful for the losses, I’m grateful for the lessons.
I hope this can bring you value. I hope this can give you perspective. I hope this can help you. You deserve it, we all deserve it. We all want to feel happy, welcomed, successful, attached. We all want to feel accomplished, grateful, stable, habitual…
Believe in yourself as much as your coach believes in you. Don’t wait. Right now is the oldest you’ve ever been, and the youngest you’ll ever be again…one life.