Success: Part 1

It was 10pm. I had done 5 hours of personal training. I had coached all of my classes. I had deep cleaned the whole gym. I had added two new members to the gym. I had woken up at 6:30 a.m. I was ready. I was committed. I was anxious…Ready for success. Committed to success. Anxious for success. I’ve waited my whole life for this. I’ve prayed my whole life for this. Prayed for peace. Prayed for stability. Prayed for happiness.

As I sat on a box waiting to be put away…Waiting to be used early tomorrow morning…contemplating. Contemplating motivation. Contemplating choices. Contemplating success.

It’s late. It’s cold. I have to wake up early tomorrow. Tomorrow is another day…I can’t leave. I can’t leave because I haven’t worked out yet. I can’t leave because this is my home. I can’t leave because I won’t be practicing what I preach. I can’t leave because I’d be letting people that I care about down. I’d by lying to myself. I’d be lying to the people that have helped make me who I am. I’d be undisciplined…

I know it’s hard. I know how much it takes. I know how many hours you are putting in. I know you have kids. I know you have a tough schedule. I know you have to pay the bills. I know it’s expensive. I know you don’t have enough time. I know you wish you had more support. I know you wish you had more money. I know you wish you could just let go. Let go of uncertainty. Let go of negativity. Let go of worries.

It takes time. It takes persistence. It takes repetitions. Repetitions on the barbell…repetitions with your kids…repetitions with the people you care about. It takes waking up a little earlier than usual. It takes saving a little more money. It takes staying a little later than usual. It takes dedication, hard work, plus patience.

Sometimes, it’s just us. It’s just our inner voice telling us to stop. It’s just our inner voice spreading unwanted thoughts. It’s just our inner voice telling us that we can’t…but I know the truth. I know that we are in control. I know that you can. I know that you will…

As I fall into a peaceful sleep I feel accomplished. I feel ready to attack. I feel ready to succeed. I feel ready to wake up and provide more. I feel ready to get out of the shower and look back at my reflection. Ready to answer. Ready to push. Ready to prevail. Ready for success.

11:30 pm.